Saturday, March 21, 2009

Update...for lack of a better title...for lack of a better quality entry

It's Spring. Finally.

A lot has happened in my life. I was sick for three weeks, which may have killed my spirit. I am doing everything in my power to live life fully; I do not want to settle for a zombie-like state again. I am trying to be awake: physically, mentally, and spiritually.

I am still a bit sick--doing much better, though. I had two ear infections: talk about unnecessary pain and discomfort. I felt like a bat in a cave for a couple days there; I could barely hear.

I went to Spain for a week. It was amazing. The old architecture is sublime--enough to make you understand how miniscule you are in the big scheme of things. It was great seeing Kristin again and being able to hang out with both her and Laura all week. My friendship with Kristin is interesting to me, because we have both changed so much since high school. We changed separately, though, and it somehow brought us closer together. We are closer now, despite the fact I rarely see her. In high school, I saw her multiple times a day. We had mostly the same classes and then, of course, had soccer practice, games, and cross country...not to mention, hanging out in the same group just for fun in the evenings. 

I think of the same type of things with Leslie. Leslie and I have been best friends for almost ten years now. In fact, we joke that we are having a "ten year anniversary" party next fall where we will make wedding-like invitations with a black and white photo of us slow-dancing on the front. She and I have changed so much, and our friendship as evolved even more. Having so much history with one person is a beautiful thing to me; I think that is what makes families so miraculous to me, too.

I am supposed to be grounding myself from my computer and phone to write all day. I figured blogging is a good compromise to get me warmed up and writing. I need to write poetry right after I finish this, though. I'm doing well in my poetry class. I met with my professor for like an hour, and he helped me a lot. I am getting more confident as a poet; however, I am not keeping up quantity wise. I am just as skilled as many, but having trouble producing enough poems for my portfolio. I am supposed to have 15 poems done by the end of the semester. I have only completed 4, and the semester is half done. I am really going to need to be more disciplined. It's hard to be creative when I have been sick and corpse-like for a month now. Today will change that, though. I am going to write for hours...even if it kills me.

I was at a party last night, and had the strange experience of having 2-3 guys hitting on me very forwardly and one girl was, too. It was so strange to have so many people wanting to talk to me. I actually left early because it was kind of overwhelming. I have a couple good guy friends, though. The one, in particular, was watching out for me and drove me home, which was nice. 

I never have much confidence with guys, but for some reason, this semester, I have had a lot of guys ask me out. I go out with a couple here and there. I have one friend I hang out with pretty regularly where I feel like something more serious could develop, but we are both loners and don't like obligations or having to call people all the time or explain where we are all the time, so I don't see a relationship developing any time soon. I'm okay with that, though. School keeps me so busy that I don't need extra obligations in my life.

I leave for Minneapolis on Wednesday morning. I will be there for the weekend at a conference, and then at Purdue presenting at a conference the following weekend. My life is going to be spinning out of control shortly. I need to take advantage of my last free Saturday for a while to write, write, write!