A Preview of Spring

he weather has made my whole week. It was not nice at the beginning, but then it got incredibly beautiful. My friend, Kristin, gave me her Rollerblades. I have been using them almost daily. Today I roller bladed for like an hour, and then went for a bike ride. My legs are a little bit sore, and by butt, well don't get me started on how sore that is.

Everything was better health wise, but then last night I developed a sore throat and a lot of congestion. My lungs burn as well. I am thinking it has to be allergies, because if all of the tests came back negative and I am still sick, then what else could it be? I did get better for like 2-3 weeks though. I am thankful for that!

Yesterday, my family traveled to Toledo to visit my cousin in the hospital who just had a baby boy on Friday. It was so weird, because it honestly seems like yesterday that we were both in Cancun together...with our hair braided, braces flashing, and new bellybutton piercings that we had gotten done together on the first night we were there. Now we are both grown and she has a kid now. It was so amazing to be holding her kid. His name is Jayden Cole and he was less than 24 hours old when I first held him. He was so light. I got to thinking as I held him "He is lighter than one of the dumbbells I use. It is truly an amazing process. It was another example of how things change so quickly and so drastically. No matter what happens, you can't go back. I just keep on keepin' on.

Friday night also was an experience that made me realize how much life is changing and how far I have come. Two of my close friends from soccer came over, along with Kristin and Cristina who I still play soccer with. We got in the hot tub and gossiped about boys and soccer, just like old times. It made me realize how much I missed them and how different it will be this year without them. We all had such a good time laughing and talking it was like things hadn't changed at all, but when they left at nearly 2 am, I realized how we wouldn't all be together again until summer. Then in the summer we will have to accommodate everyones work schedule, and then all of their friends from their grade will be home from school. I just don't think things will ever be the same. Kristin and Cristina stayed until after 3am. We were talking about how in one year we would all be at different schools. It makes me sad to think about how much things will change, but it is very exciting at the same time.

My spiritual growth was going so well, and once again, I feel stunted. I feel like I have to fight myself daily to be spiritual. Sometimes, I just don't feel like fighting. The group I go to S. Dakota with, has pretty much fallen apart and that discourages me. I should have gone to visit my lady in the nursing home, but Wednesday I don't have school, so I will make it a priority to stop by then. I did warn her that soccer was starting and I would not be able to come by much. She was very understanding about it. Maybe I will take her a flower or something to make up for it, because I feel badly and I miss her.

I still haven't heard back from U-M. I am beginning to lose hope. I have so many people who have been hearing back that they got in. I am beginning to think that if I haven't heard anything yet, maybe that means I won't be accepted. They said to allow until the beginning of April, so I guess there is still time. I really need to start blogging regularly again. I feel like there is so much to say, but not enough time. I will try to do better.